Watching what is happening outside of my little happy bubble is horrifying. The deaths, the suffering, the isolation of those in hospitals and nursing homes that can not be supported by loved ones is heartbreaking. The response by nurses and health workers is amazing, and the videos of ones who are overwhelmed by what they see really gets through to the soul. So much suffering. have made over 200 masks so far and will keep going as long as there is need.
Therein lies the guilt. Being immunosuppressed, I have been warned. I would not be surprised though if I have already had the virus, as I was really run down and had symptoms in January and February. If that were true, I would not need to be quarantined now. Hoping for a simple antibody blood test, which the government is working on.
So, after nearly a month of this, I've realized...
1. My puppies are true angels
2. I miss my students and school life so much!
3. BUT...my pain levels have not changed, but my level of suffering has gone down. I can address pain when it comes vs. pushing through the bads all the time.
4. I need a lot of sleep to function and not be exhausted all of the time
5. Facebook, texts, and the Internet is a lifeline
6. Being a pack rat has its advantages
7. My house is still a mess, and I can't blame not having the time. And it is ok because no one is over here but me!
8. The photo I posted on this page a while ago is very telling -- exhausted, grumpy, old haggy. Will be replaced.
9. Spring will be here, regardless of the pandemic.
10. I will always have more art in my head and heart than I have time and energy to create. The extra time is invaluable...stay tuned!
Be safe, everyone.